Fallin'

One of my favorite parts of working at Caribou is our daily trivia question.

If a customer correctly guesses, then they save a bunch of money on their car insurance AND save ten cents on their beverage.

I lied about the first part.

Anyways, tonight’s question was a pop culture question.

“Fill in the lyric for Alicia Key’s song ‘Falin’:

Sometimes I feel good,

At times I feel ______. “

The answer is “used”.

I got to thinking about this song. It’s obviously about a relationship with a man.

But on second thought, it perfectly describes the relationship I have with my body.

Yes, this is a body image post.

I wrote a post a couple days ago about how good I was feeling about life and about myself.

Today, I felt the opposite.

I worked out at the gym.

I felt mediocre afterwards.

I looked in the mirror and saw my sunburnt face.

I felt unattractive.

I listened to one of my favorite show tunes songs and felt weepy after hearing the key change.

And then I got mad at my parasympathetic nervous system for almost crying.

So, in not so many words, today I strongly disliked myself.

I keep on falling in and out of love with my body.

I’m not posting this to receive validation for anyone who possibly reads this blogs. I’m posting it because I think that people, females especially, can probably relate to my sentiments and feelings about my body.

I’m certain that in a few days I’ll feel the opposite of how I felt today.

I’m still not entirely sure how to conquer this love-hate relationship I have with my body.

Maybe I should stop watching movies, television, reading magazines, having skinny friends, or being around children who ask me if I want to be skinny.

That last one really happened.

Do you have a love-hate relationship with your body?

What do you do when you’re leaning towards hate on a particular day?